Bill Weasley

( Application )

At least when I left hell, I only went straight back into hell. Only the location is different.

Brilliant.

At this point the only solution is drinking and trying not to get killed. Maybe it's an either/or situation. Who knows.

[Weak, flickering ward to Charlie]
Charlie...

Help.

[Warded against anyone under 17]
So far, being here has led to mostly a lot of drinking thinking.

I miss having a one year old so I didn't have-- [inksplotch]
to think

I kind of hate thinking. Put me back in a coma. It would be kinder Someone tell me other worlds are happier.

Right. I am suddenly in this--


Fucking twitches, can't fucking goddamned write. Damn it
Where am I? I don't even know. Expected? Yeah. Right. That's just great. Just fucking great. Where's my one year old? Speaking of which, where's Mum? Where's Charlie? Where's anyone?

You can't just--



GOD DAMN IT!

Right. I'm going home...somehow. Fuck this

[Bill's practicing more...Legible writing is...not exactly what we'd call it]

Firewhiskey

good thing i'm



not dead



waste of alcohol drinks





cut hand on glass



it's o...kay

may need help


bathroom

[Writing is just a smidge better than before]

getting better

still messy



still no



magic.


lonely miss Charlie

[Written very much like a kid might write]

Bill

[Written quite a bit later]

Weas


[Written even later]

Weasley

[Written sloppily enough that it probably looks like a little child scribbled more than an actual word.]

Hi.

I'm making a few preliminary rules.

1. No pitying
2. No hovering
3. Don't be my mother
3. Don't touch me unless I have had a lot of pain potions or you are my daughter. Most of you aren't. Discontinue any and all touching desires.
4. Don't ask me to hold anything. I can't.
5. I don't care who you are, I'm not deaf. I can hear you. Use a reasonable inside voice or don't bother talking.
6. Don't say anything stupid or ask any stupid questions. You'll know because something will be thrown, though not necessarily by me.

I just wanted to be clear. I like to hope that most of you have common sense enough to know things like this, but one can never be sure.

I'm sure by now my siblings have alerted the entire world to my being awake. I can't do magic, much less even hold a wand in my hand. I can't do a lot of things right now. I will lose focus during our conversations. Patience is a virtue or something. Whatever the fuck. No one cares anyway. Wards are pretty meaningless at this point. I can't make any and I have to say everything I want to be written. Asking someone else to write your private thoughts is stunningly not the best option. I don't want or need people knowing what I would ward so they can't see if I could actually fucking ward anything.

I don't want to talk about it. I don't need to talk about it. Talk about something else. Not talking is also an option.

That's about all I have for you right now. I'm going back to sleep. If you absolutely can't live without seeing me, wait until the afternoon. After lunch, even. Severus, feel free to add your own rules if you want them.

[Warded to Fleur]
I love you.

Just so you know.

( Regular journals, Warded to Charlie, Katie, and Ginny )

Uprising Journals

Much as I know some of you aren't pleased with me right now, I'm writing my own sort of wrap up of the last journal. Starting with your most emphatically "NO" response.

1. Severus Snape will not get a journal. Emmeline, I believe you and I can be the go between. Super creative wards it is.

2. We have ideas. We just have to find a way to make them work. However, if anyone else has ideas, I urge you to give them to us. The more ideas we have, the better. Also, the more we have, and the more vocal people are about things they'd be willing and able to do, the easier things can be delegated.

3. I know we're all worried, but we need to be on the same page and, as someone reminded me, save our tempers for battle. It'll do us more good there.

( Warded to TELLA )

( Warded to Barlow )

( Warded to Paul )

Uprising Journals!!!

1. We need to start having meetings if it will actually get us to plan something.

2. If I have to sit around for one more second, I am going to go crazy.

3. Severus Snape needs a journal. He needs to be kept up to date with what we're still not doing. Fred...George? Can I count on you for this matter?

4. Think of me as your Head Boy if you have to. Is anyone good enough on a broom and are there enough of us for any sort of air attack should we end up in battle soon. Don't ask me to head it, because I will likely injure myself.

5. I don't know...someone have any ideas...I only have one at the moment and it's a long shot.

[Private]
I need to start a list of ideas. Maybe we can discuss them.

Added in later

I will not lose my temper when it comes to everyone ever. Write this far too many times to count until you fall asleep from boredom.

[Warded to Weasley children and Fleur Charlie]

I need something to do or I'll go mad. Please save me!

[Warded to Severus]
If anyone tries to break this ward, it will turn into a grocery list

I need to- At the danger of sounding productive, I was hoping you might be willing to assist me with something that may possibly be useful. What surprise! A plan. People make them! I am surprised, too! I also have to wonder if you are in possession of one of our special journals. It would keep you more up to date with what we're not actually doing.

[Uprising Journal]

Anyone need the expertise of a former Cursebreaker?

Kings
Have I mentioned that being in a safehouse with THREE WOMEN is the most horrible idea in the entire world?

Ginny and Fleur keep snapping at each other. I swear the only sensible female in the house is Victoire...and she's almost TWO.

Also...I need something to do before I end up forcing Charlie to duel with me every day for far too many hours and we just end up hurting ourselves. There are only so many wards you can put on a house that the rest of the people in the house can reasonably undo. I keep being painstakingly reminded that I am the only Cursebreaker here. Well, former Cursebreaker. What I wouldn't give to be back out there

[Warded to Fred, George, and Charlie]

Moving forward. All hands on deck.

[Warded to Ginny]

I've missed my favourite little sister. Any chance I can spoil you with dinner or lunch in exchange for a bit of conversation?

I even got you something pretty for the occasion.

The Goblins are all in an uproar. Work will be exciting for the next few days. Brilliant.

[Warded extremely private to T]

Stay safe.

As hard as it is to believe this...my brothers are becoming decrepit old men. Soon their minds will be feeble.

[Warded to the twins]

Happy birthday to the both of you. I think I'll leave all April Fool's jokes to you. Don't expect me to believe a damned word of your nonsense, however.

[Warded to Fleur]

Just letting you know once more...that I love you. I was thinking we might want to settle on a date...I don't think we did...unless we did and I have missed it...or forgotten.

I hate to say our honeymoon will have to come after the war but... I was thinking we should plan a really nice honeymoon too...but it may have to wait...as much as that sounds horrible.

[Private to Fleur]

I thought you should know I love you...and don't cook tomorrow. I've got that covered.

You are absolutely beautiful.

I really feel the urge to get out and do something. Anyone in? I need a bloody distraction

[Hexed extra private to Ron Weasley]

Happy birthday, little brother. You've survived another year. I wish I had something I could give you...even if it was only a hug. Love you.

[Hexed extra super crazy private to Remus]
[Anyone that tries to open this outside of Remus will seriously regret it]

I am glad to hear you're alive...but FOR MERLIN'S FUCKING SAKE, REMUS LUPIN! Are we TRYING to get people killed?

You're a fucking moron, you know

Don't do it again. Now I have to make sure no one in my family gets offed. Let me go do that now

So much to do, so little time! I need random fun. Any takers?

[Private to Charlie]

You really need to quit setting off these alarms without coming over to talk to me. You know I'm almost as sensitive to your problems as the twins are with each other.

[Private to self]

Why am I so tense? Bugger.

[Private to Charlie]

My inner Charlie alarms are going off. Something's the matter. Do I have to come find you or will you come find me?

[Private to self]

I hope it gets better...because fuck.

[Private to Charlie]

Belated birthday celebrations? Yes or fuck yes?

Also, I've missed you. Come round whenever you're free.

[Private to Fred]

How's that flirting with boys thing going for you, Fred?

Also, when will I see you next?

[Private to Weasleys (plus Fleur and Tonks)]

I have this strange (though not really strange) urge to cook for more than myself. Family dinner? Thoughts?

I've missed you lot.

You know what I realized? I missed my birthday. I bloody forgot all about it. Not even kidding. How did I manage that? And now it's Christmas and I don't know how it got here.

[Private to Weasleys and Fleur]

We're going to Mum's tomorrow, right? Does anyone know what time. It seems I am older than I recalled. I think I must have turned 80 this year, not 31. Holy shit. I am 31. Fuck, I'm old.

I hope you all got me some good presents, because I know I got you soooome. No hints this year.

[Private to Charlie]

So...I have also forgotten to come pester you for your own birthday. As we both seem to have forgotten birthdays...Would you be amenable to a night of brotherly bonding. I'll cook and you can bring a film...or something. We'll eat, drink, and watch stupid films. Sound like a plan?

I still have a few presents to get. I don't have a tree...but I was thinking about decorating my flat. Would anyone like to help me? I know it probably won't take much effort...but there's a reason Mum never lets me decorate for parties, and decorating is much more fun when you have someone along with you.

So much to plan, so little time to plan it.

[Private to Weasleys (and Tonks)]

So, Weasleys! I thought you should know a special secret. It is soooo special that you very well might faint in delight at being included in it.

I asked a very special lady to marry me (yes, I mean Fleur) and she said yes. So...now I guess we have lots of fun planning to get on with.

[Private to Charlie]

The answer to this had better be yes...and I'm pretty sure it will be...but, will you be my best man?

Check up tomorrow. Then nothing. Guess that means, so long as you are not busy, my love...I am coming to see you. You know who you are.

[Private to Fleur]

Yes, I do mean you. Are you busy? I'd like to come over and see you and my dearest daughter. I have presents to bestow upon you both...And an offer I sincerely hope you can't turn down

Today is uneventful. Too much paperwork.

( Hexed private to Fred )

( Private to Percy )

[Hexed Private to Ginny and Charlie]

You two, my beautiful self, and a ring shop...in the near future? Yes? Yes? You don't want to trust me to this task alone.

I suggest somewhere Mum doesn't have eyes and ears.

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[Hexed private to Fred]
I'm sorry.
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I'm going to visit my daughter.

I love my daughter. I'm taking her some flowers.

[Hexed private to self]
Fred is upset with me. I don't think he is very pleased with me anymore. It hurts. A lot.

I'm doing better. I know I am. Fuck fuck fuck.

Nothing makes sense.
[/P]

Well, a few things have...umm...well, they have changed. I'd like to say for the better.

[Private to Fred and Ginny]

Help me. I need...your assistance with something. A very sneaky something...A very sneaky something that Mum is not allowed to be aware of...until I want her to know, okay? Please?

[Private to Weasleys & Tonks]

Also...have I really been quite restrained emotionally? I feel like I have been.

I know I've still shown emotion...just not very deeply or very meaningfully. Does that make any sense?

Something is off. Anyone else have a similar moment where you just sort of...remembered emotions and found yourself quite confused as to why it felt very strange to feel them?

[/P]

Something is not quite right...only I don't know what it is.

Perhaps more thinking on the subject will bring it to light.

Work's been a little crazy recently. I've had barely any time to think, much less write.

Since I have a moment now, how's everyone doing?

[Private to Fleur]
Do you and Toire want to come over for dinner?
[/P]

I think I have failed to mention...that I am really quite an amazing person. If you've forgotten, that is very epically sad. Luckily, this will remind you of such.

[Private to Fleur]

Sorry about being such a prat and being very distracted recently? Forgive me? Please. Just had a lot of really confusing things on my mind. I'll come see you and Victoire tomorrow. Honest. Even if you do behave very strangely when I am there and mention the Ministry. Honestly, what is up with that? Only I think something may be off. The goblins are acting really strange. What does that mean?

I hope Gabrielle is doing well?

[Private to Percy]

I got that book I mentioned. I thought I'd let you take a bit of a look if you want. I can bring it to the Quidditch game and all.

[/P]

I've had the most interesting few days. I can't hang streamers for shit, though. Ginny will attest to that. Unfortunate, really.

I found a cowboy hat. I intend to wear it around. It's not very colorful...as it is black...but I like it all the same.

I should like to point out to my siblings that we need to arrange a get together of sorts. I don't see you all quite as much as I would like to and yes, Tonks, I do include you. I include you because Charlie likes you so much and I would feel a bit guilty if I told you that you couldn't come spend time with us crazy Weasley children. However, if you have plans, I shall simply transfigure something to look like you and make it wear a silly hat. I think that would suit perfectly. What are your feelings about silly hats? I might make you wear one anyway...if you come.

The goblins are all very...uncomfortable looking at work nowadays. I don't understand.

[Private to T]

I didn't get in any trouble at work for all that stuff. Those two goblins still eye me warily when I walk into work, though. They keep shooting looks at the door as if they expect you to walk in at any second now.

I think they are afraid of you...which is rather comical. Anyway. I thought you'd like to know.

[Private to Ginny]

When's your next game again? I'm a terrible brother and I've gone and forgotten. I do want to come see you play, though.

[Private to self]

Something is still very off. I don't like it. I don't know who to talk to about this. Why does it feel so strange? The goblins are acting strangely and they don't ever act out of the ordinary. They are very set in their ways. I should know! However, they are acting oddly and rather nervous and they fret a good deal and I think it has something to do with the Mark that people have...like T.

Something is really quite...off. I feel bad for those people the Prophet says are on the run. I don't know if I should...but I do...

[/P]

Well, hello. I've got the day off tomorrow, I think? Who out there would like to entertain me? I know it is such a big job. All the same, I find myself more easily amused recently.

Any takers?

[Private to Charlie]

Have I mentioned recently how much I miss you, little brother? I really do. Please visit me soon. Otherwise I'm going to have to hit you with...something that's not really all that hard...but I'd imagine it was to make me feel better.
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